Friday 30 January 2015

Basant


'Girls Flying Kite'
 Kulu Folk Painting
 18th century Himachal Pradesh, India
Photo source: Pinterest 


Happiness incarnate
is a bunch of kites
dancing in the wind.

Manacled and maneuvered
by human hands
and made directionless
by the playful breeze.

Held captive between
two indomitable forces
of heaven and earth.

Look how they find
a moment of ecstasy
to dance their happy dance.


Saturday 17 January 2015

A Monsoon Memory



 Last year's diary entry revived in memory after a dear uncle gifted our home, this beautiful Kashmiri carpet. 


Roads are built and rebuilt each day in my city. The drilling. The dust. The frozen traffic. The clusters of brown glistening bodies moving about over eroded pieces of land. There is an incessant mechanical drone and a drab grey mist that envelopes your entire being. So much so, that it never really leaves your system. The noise,  the dirt, the sweat seem to seep right into your skin and stay with you, making each of us look a little more tired, a little older than what we ought to.

It was a day like all others. My rickety auto rickshaw along with numerous other vehicles on the street were stalled by such a road repair feat. As I waited impatiently for the traffic to start moving again, I noticed beside me, the endless concrete grids that formed the skeleton of the new road to come.

This was a fairly familiar sight. The uniformly constructed, vacant, concrete squares. Drying to form harder, coarser insides to sustain all the weight and pressure of the city. But these grids had something unusual about them.

Unlike most other streets in Mumbai, this one has the sweet fortune of being lined by tall flower-ridden trees. Moreover, the city had just dipped itself into the early showers of June. The breeze too was rather generous these days. It must have been at some invisible hour of the previous night when the wind had brushed the trees off their delicate yellow flowers and strewn them all over that lifeless spine of the street.

I sat, transfixed for quite some time, gazing at all those hitherto colorless and empty squares now filled with a fine layer of yellow flowers. Luckily, nobody was trying to remove them. The glistening bodies carried on their work as usual. And the flowers kept settling deeper and deeper.

Now, every day as I pass by that street, I smile to myself thinking of all those millions of flowers forming an invisible but fundamental layer of the ground beneath our feet. In between layers of hardened concrete, the memory of those soft and fragrant flowers gives me a renewed strength for another day in the city.




Sunday 11 January 2015

Knots

  
The last bell rang, nice and long, trilling with a cheerfulness of a young bird having taken flight for the very first time. It would only take a few more minutes and the gates of the school would be pushed open to make way for the sparkling waves that would spill out of the red-bricked convent premises.

The second graders always ended with a session dedicated to fitness and meditation on Thursdays. This new addition to their curriculum was a curious mix of clumsy martial art kicks and punches and a vague summing up with sleep inducing breathing exercises. For some of the girls, it was two hours of additional play, ideal to release any left-over energy saved up from the not long enough recess.  For some, it was endured indifferently like the moral science and EVS classes. But for Tutul, it was nothing less than a dread. Not so much the class itself, but the return from the exercise hall back to her classroom. You see, this class demanded Tutul to shake off her tightly bound canvas shoes and jump and hop, stretch and balance, all on her puny-pale bare feet. That much she was used to. Why, that’s what she did at home all evening. Actually the matter was not in fact her feet. The matter was her shoes. More so, the treacherous laces that snaked around devilishly over her shoes. They lay sprawled teasingly. Not how they were supposed to be. Not how they were pulled and tugged to sit by her father in the morning. She walked back to the bus slower than usual every Thursday, making sure she does not trip over those tentacles growing out of her little feet.

Tutul hated knots. Of all kinds.
There were those that magically formed in the depths of her bushy hair each morning. They were for the most part invisible. But they would spring to the fore painfully, as her father ran the sharp toothed comb through her hair.

Then there were the knots of her pajamas that refused to budge when she wanted to go pee so bad. Which string were you to pull for salvation? She always chose the wrong one. And the knot tightened its angry fist into a ball of stone.

And how could she forget, her brother’s tangled earphones. It was rare that she managed to steal them from him. But when she did, by the time, she had sorted out all those stubborn twists and turns, to allow a smooth and blissful moment of music, her brother would already be on her back and would snatch it from her hand. 

And as she grew up, the knots only proliferated more and more around her.

Some she encountered each day on her travels in the crowded city. The kind that was at every other junction. A giant knot of smoke exhaling trucks and buses, cars and motorbikes. She wondered how they got so chaotically tangled. Sometimes there was a patient man who would slowly and painstakingly, with the concentrated and noble air of a classical orchestra conductor, try to disentangle the many threads jamming the road. But almost always, the symphony created was a harsh blaring of impatient horns and angry howls. And through all this, the knot remained intact, all of us, tightly bound in its grip.

But there were those that kept getting more and more oppressive. These knots cropped up in her friendships. And in her love. Taking root in misunderstood silences and growing stronger with careless words. These too, In spite of fierce battles with them refused to budge. And then she saw, on some days, and most nights, as she stood before her mirror, the darkest knots creeping upward from her neck and spreading all across her face. She watched herself carefully with a melancholic resignation in her eyes, running her fingers over the crisscross of dark strokes that shone through her pale skin.

But at uncertain times like these, she also sat by her high window and blinked at the blinking city lights. And slowly but steadily, a humongous and beautiful patchwork of knots illuminated itself before her. It lay sprawled defiantly and with a rugged pride for miles and miles below her. A confused tangle of wilting towers and dusty foliage, of lonely corners intersecting brimming highways, of clouds of dust kicked up into the universe and a stagnant pool of water holding most delicately a perfect half-moon in its breast.

And for that moment, however brief, she with her knotted insides and the city with her own, they sat together like friends on their way home in the bus, tired, but resting on each other’s shoulders.



Wednesday 7 January 2015

Day at the Studio


Long Shot

A neon green world
smoldering under a horde of suns
choked in red-black wires
struggling to tell a story.


Setting the Stage

Perched atop a towering ladder
a brown sweaty body
screwing a yellow light in place.
Down below a small caked man
layered with powder and pride.
Frowning and fidgety.
Waiting...sipping lemonade.


The Green Room

A large tin chest
tucked away in a bulbed room
holds within it colorful treasures.
A golden hat, a jeweled robe,
shoes made of glass.
The owner,
a dusty wrinkled man
stares at them longingly.
His treasures.
Destined for another.


Accompanists

A ceaseless beat rises
from the drum set bold and new.
The woman hums a melody
a favorite of the crew.
Her lips word the happy song,
her eyes a different tune.


Actors

The stage of life
is full of actors
some big, some small
and some invisible.
The big ones smile
the small ones wait
and those invisible
are almost God like.